To the old best friend,

because tonight is one of those nights. 

I wonder how you're doing now? It's been so long since we really spoke. Used to be hours in school, texts after, occasional long random phone calls at night. 

I remember how heartbroken I was when I was assigned to another class after only a year, but maybe you didn't know, cos I was the "super calm no drama" person. Or maybe you did, cos you're awesome like that. Or maybe I whined a lot. Actually I don't remember anymore. Only know I was heartbroken. LOL. 

Because you made all the boring classes and tuition almost bearable! Remember when I stuck cellophane tape to your arm to see what would happen? :P

I miss you!!!

I used to think we understood each other really well. That one time we played truth or dare I couldn't even think of anything to ask you cos I shallow- and thick-facedly thought I knew everything about you. You said then that YOU were shallow because there's nothing deeper to you but that is so not true. Sadly I was the shallow one. But at that time I really thought I did know quite much.. and took pride in it, like a needy, faithful sidekick. Haha! 

Weird, our friendship was probably lopsided because you are awesome in ways I never will be and my awesomeness level will never measure up to yours. 

Still it was a good one. It wasn't the "you flatter me, I flatter you" kind, but we talked about everything, joked (your sense of humour, awesome^9999!), you knew all the contents of my pulsing black cobwebbed ventricles and atria, and you always gave really good advice! After a disastrous karaoke session you even burned a CD full of karaoke-worthy songs for me :')

It was easy to be honest with you cos you never judged me in any way. If anything, you made my crappy failures seem almost normal, human. 

I can even tell you I miss you without feeling queasy. :D

You know I don't think much of the label "best friend" but that is what you were to me. Even though you're a guy and I know my parents don't approve. :P 

I wonder though, are there such things as "ex-best friends"? We went our separate ways so long ago that about all I can recognize about you now is your face, voice and handwriting. Oh and the insulting "your mom" jokes =.= 

It's entirely my fault for not keeping in touch. You know, lazy habit of not replying mails, texts, returning calls. I didn't even reply your Christmas message!!!!! I'm such an ass. A really sorry one at the moment. 

Hope you're okay at home atm. Talk soon and see you soon!!!!! ETA of a hand-delivered postcard 11th August. xx