A little low on highs

Hola, it's september! One more month and I'll be back in Freiburg. So much more work to do but so little time... As usual I regret now that I didn't start working earlier - now it's gonna be like back to spm days, full-speed chugging ahead! Maybe coffee will become my best friend from today onwards.

Here's a pretty picture of Freiburg to liven up things a bit!

I must say that being back in Malaysia hasn't turned out to be what I expected. My family is fine, they've all been manja-ing me since I came back - dad always asking me to go out and eat, mom taking me shopping and unexpectedly paying for EVERYTHING I buy (they used to call me Pacman cos I "swallow" money and always worried that I would become broke one day) and my brother is so different now! He talks to me and everything. Once his friends came over and he introduced me and let me play his card games with them! And at home we kacau each other so endlessly my parents get annoyed and say stuff like "you think you're still 5 years old ah". But awwwww, I can feel the siblingy love growing already. Hahahahaha.

Hmm, I just realized our "haha"s have grown a little longer since we started typing them. Like in form 1, "haha" was funny and "hahaha" was really funny. Now? "Hahaha" is kind of a friendly filler laugh and the really funny stuff get rewarded with "hahahahahahahaha" or "HAHAHA". Why ah?

Anyway.

In the friends department though I find myself sadly lacking. When I just came back and wanted to meet up with some people, they said, stay at home first or else your parents won't be happy. So I stayed at home. And stayed at home some more. After a while it was like I never came back and my family started commenting on how I've been abandoned by my friends. Lol. I don't blame them though. It's no one's fault. I guess we just grew apart and the lack of common ground just makes for sparse conversation. When I finally did see some friends, there was an awkwardness that wasn't there before. Maybe it was due to my ridiculously unawesome conversational skills. I'm so sorry about that. I'm really more of a listener who just adds a few grunts and nods here and there. (Oh gosh so manly!) If anything more is expected of me I start feeling stressed =.= 

But! I really appreciate the kind souls who still drop some words once in a while. I always look forward to the few hours spent around a tiny table, drinks in hand, light conversation floating around... Only I don't ask you guys out cos I'm the only one on break and not being able to drive adds to the suckiness cos asking people out and THEN asking them to come fetch you is really just plain lousy.

I hope some of you see this and take it as a kind of explanation and don't think I'm unfriendly T_T because again, talking is not my strong point and talking about feelings is even harder. Writing makes things that much easier.

Oh! Just one last thing before I go study. Here's a postcard my students sent from Germany:

The two sisters are my students. Why they so cuuuuuute T_T
They sent this while on holiday at the Nordsee near Hamburg. I really like this family la! I'm so lucky to have found them cos they're my first students and I just saw an ad they put on the Studentenwerk Freiburg website that arranges accomodation and work opportunities etc. and I wrote to them and voila! now I know one of the sweetest families ever. They really trust me to do my job and have been asking when their youngest son can start even though he's only two and a half. :)))

I feel all warm inside. Hahahahaha!
Okay, off to work now.